My horrible memory!

So, yesterday I was looking for a book and I came across an old journal that I used for my first trip to Uganda.  It was in 2007 and God worked out all the circumstances for me to be able to accompany my hubby on a missions trip to Soroti, UG.  I started to journal a few months before we left.  I don't know why because I AM NOT a journaler.  I wanna be.  But I am not!  For some reason (God), I sat down and wrote out my thoughts and feeling about our upcoming trip.  As I was reading the first page I was stopped dead in my tracks...I couldn't believe it!  Here is what it said:

In case you can't read my messy handwriting, it says..."Jeff & I have started to dialogue about adopting a child from Uganda.  Just thinking about it has changed my whole view of this trip.  Looking at my first experience to Africa through the eyes of possibly being a mom is really life changing.  But in my heart I have released this option completely to the Lord, so we will have to wait and see what His plan is for our trip and our family!"

That was almost 5 years ago that I wrote that down. Honestly, I DO NOT remember writing this at all.  Those of you who know my hubby and I know that we both have horrible memories.  We say that is why we don't really fight and why we have a great marriage because we can't remember why we were mad in the first place!

I love God's timing.  I had been praying for a confirmation from the Lord this past week and a word of encouragement for my heart. That was just what I needed!

 We are starting our 8th month on the "waiting list" with our agency.  We were anticipating waiting for around 6 months and once we hit that the weeks seem to have drug on.  Last week we got word from our agency that they are now anticipating the referral wait to be more like 12 months.  So, realistically we have another 4 months to wait.  But...that is international adoption!

We are at peace and we will continue to wait for His perfect timing to meet our son!

Sweet adoption song- Naleigh Moon

This song is too sweet not to share!

I don't normally post this many videos but there are some good ones out there right now:-)

The Jesus I know!

Those of you who grew up in "church" and got caught up in all the religion and missed Jesus... this gives a great perspective for all He has done and why this Jesus is worth following!

2012 is the YEAR!

What an amazing month of December we had!  We tried to be intentional and SLOW down our busy pace of life...AND it worked!!  We spent time with friends and family, going to the Muppets movie, splurging on frozen yogurt, rock climbing at the gym, crabbing at the coast, playing games, eating yummy food, celebrating Jesus birth and watching Christmas movies together!  I would do it all over again...it was so worth it!

Now if we can only keep our everyday life like that:-)

Adoption update:
Some of our friends who are also adopting from Uganda with the same agency got their referral a few days before Christmas.  What a glorious Christmas present!  But...if I am truthful...which I aim to be in EVERYTHING...it caused my heart to race and I kinda freaked out a little.  Just a little bit.

This whole adoption process became so real for me hearing their story and the precious little girl God has set aside for this awesome family.  It hit me...we could be next!  My faith is being stretched and I have told God how much I need him to strengthen my faith and help me to put all my trust in Him.

So we continue to pray for our little boy that God is moving in his life and preparing him to join our family and preparing our hearts for him too!!

Adoption update

I CAN'T BELIEVE that it's Dec 1st and I have failed to update my blog since Aug. 9th. Good grief! I promise to try and do better:)

We are heading into our 6th month of waiting for the referral of our little boy! I know that anyone who has walked this adoption journey before knows how difficult it can be to SIT AND WAIT! We talk about him and pray for him with the kids or friends and family who check in and see how things are going but, mostly...we sit and wait!

Friends have told me that this is the hardest part...waiting for your referral. It seems to drag on each day and you swear your phone will never ring! We don't know who he is just that he is alive and in Uganda needing a family to love him and care for him.

Dare I say, that some days we are so busy with our other 3 children that it actually feels like its not even real and will never happen. Once in a while the days drag on when all my kids are in school and I "try" to stay busy with housework, reading my adoption, coffee dates, etc...to help pass the time. Don't get me wrong, I have LOVED these past 3 months with the kids in school and days to myself enjoying the quiet house and being able to lounge in my jammies listening to my favorite podcasts, cooking or just sitting quietly. But...my heart has a longing that was placed there by God and it will continue to long until He completes the journey that He started in our hearts exactly a year ago this month!